Rebel Without a Cause and a Linkup

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Jacket: Make Me Chic // Pants:  Ewa Bazaar // Boots:  Charlotte Russe
Today is the first outfit photo that was taken with my brand
spankin new camera!  For those of you who
follow me on Instagram, y’all were the first to know about my purchase of the
Sony A6000.  This is my first mirrorless
camera and the boyfriend said that taking my outfit photos is like night and
day compared to my Cannon Rebel.  I must
say, from the times I’ve used this myself it’s been amazing.  The quality, and the detail that this camera
is able to capture without distorting the image is freakin unbelievable.  I barely edited these photos, I probably
could’ve gotten away with not editing them at all to be completely honest.  I color corrected a few things, but that’s about
it. 
Over the past week or so I haven’t been too inspired.  I’m not going to lie to my lovely readers, I
don’t know if it’s because the holidays are over, or if it’s because it’s been
cold outside, but I’m just not inspired by anything.  I’ve been trying to switch up my style to see
if that would help my “nothingness” I guess you can call it.  I’m really stressed out about things going on
with my personal life and other projects I’m working on outside of my blog,
along with my full time job, that I’ve kind of lost myself.  It’s really sad that so early into the new
year I’m feeling this way.  I knew that
after the holidays I had to start taking care of more serious matters, but just
being disappointed by people is never easy. 
Feeling like a failure, is never easy. 
Thanks to these feelings my nightmares have come back.  I used to get night terrors to the point
where waking up in a cold sweat, crying, or sometimes yelling, was pretty normal
and an every night occurrence.  Over the
past few weeks, waking up in a cold sweat, sometimes crying, having to walk it
off in my apartment has become my reality yet again.  I wouldn’t call them night terrors just yet,
but they are slowly getting there.
I guess I feel like getting this out there is my
therapy.  Writing about life and my “off
days” helps me cope.  It also helps me
realize that I’m a normal person who hurts when she’s sad, breathes heavily
when she’s angry, laughs when she’s happy, and loves with her whole heart.  I know that in the end everything will work
out, but unfortunately for my family, boyfriend, and the fur children, I’ll be
a stressed out cranky mess until I figure some things out.  If you’ve read up until this point I’m very
surprised because no one ever likes to hear about others suffering or
complaining, but I wanted to show y’all that life throws curveballs at ALL of
us, and sometimes those curveballs just ruin the mood.
I think that might be why for today’s outfit I’m keeping it
simple and rebellious.  I’m standing up
to these curveballs and taking them like a champ!  Well, not really, but I’m trying to handle
it!
Alright moving on to our most clicked from last week and I also wanted to give a special shoutout to someone who linked up last week.  I know I haven’t done a featured blogger, but I think she deserves recognition for telling her story and going through chemo and keeping her spirits up.  She is such an inspiration.

Reading this post almost made me want to delete all of what I wrote above but I needed to get my feelings out there.  However I’ve read Fun Fierce Fabulous’s blog post over and over again because I love reading about women who DON’T GIVE UP and keep going no matter how hard it is.  I hate cancer and everything about it since I have friends and family who fought or are currently fighting and it’s a horrible thing.  I know for sure I would probably lose myself and I can’t even imagine keeping up with my blog during a time like that.  That’s why reading the blog post linked above was awesome.
Ok, now moving on to the top 3 most clicked bloggers from last week’s linkup.

Jersey Girl, Texan Heart Link Up
Jersey Girl, Texan Heart Link Up
   
   
   
   

12 thoughts on “Rebel Without a Cause and a Linkup”

  1. Gorgeous pictures! I totally go through the same process every January. It's just hard for me to get really motivated to do stuff. Call it the Winter blues or a Holiday hangover but it's real. I love your pics and how fun to start using a new camera! I love your leather jacket and your scarf. Perfect for Winter!

    http://www.mylittlenest.org

  2. Monica, first of all, I want to say that you look amazing in this outfit. You look like you are about to ready to kick the ass of some of your demons! And on that note, one thing I learned through years of a similar battle and endless hours of therapy is that sometimes you just need to fake it until you make it. When you can't control what's going on inside of you, grab control of what's going outside of you and eventually the two start to reflect on each other. And you certainly LOOK like you are grabbing control…in your outfit AND by sharing your struggle. Just keep doing what you're doing and you will get where you need to be. Sending all sorts of positive vibes out to you, my friend.

    Shelbee
    http://www.shelbeeontheedge.com

  3. First of all, you look amazing in this outfit! Love your boots! The pictures look great, I'll have to check out that camera. I have a Canon Rebel myself but it's getting old and acting up so I was thinking of upgrading soon. As far as your personal stuff I wake up in the middle of the night quite often too worrying or panicking about my loved ones. So I understand what you're going through. I have my faith, so I use that time to pray. I do think the weather also plays a huge part in a mental health. Winter is so hard on everyone. If only it weren't so long!

  4. Thank you so much for sharing my story! I love what you wrote and just knowing that you are giving me an outlet to share means the world to me! You are such a beautiful spirit walking on this earth!

  5. Absolutely gorgeous shade of red/purple boots/scarf! I am so sorry to hear you're going through that…I totally get it. Especially when it's cold out and gets dark early, it's hard to be motivated and inspired. As you said, everything will end up working out but don't feel like you're alone, I've had my share of those days all too often sometimes 🙂 Thanks for hosting such a great link party and being real with your followers 🙂

    Sarah Bell
    Trendy & Tidy

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