This is 32.

Dress:  Rebellia // Shoes:  Zulilly

It’s my 32nd birthday today!  I don’t normally post anything on the weekends, but I feel as though my birthday is deserving of it.  Oh, and hi, I have pink hair now haha!  Today I wanted to talk about some things I would have told my younger self, after reflecting back on the past 32 years of my life.

1. It’s true what they say, 30 is the new 20.  Don’t worry about hitting 30, because it’s so much better than being a lost girl, who literally did not have her life together.  You still don’t after 30, but at least it’s easier than it used to be haha!
2. Be yourself.  Once you started acting more like yourself on your blog and Youtube, people started to react more to what you have to say.  You have a voice, don’t be afraid to use it, EVEN if people will disagree with you.  Stop filtering yourself just to appeal to the masses.
3. Don’t fight.  Of course you can disagree with people, however, be the mediator of the situation (like you are now at 32).  You will be more respected for being a mature woman expressing her opinion, rather than a childish brat fighting as loud as you can.
4. Don’t waste time.  Time flies by faster than you think.  Remember when you were told that you shouldn’t want to grow up because time flies way too fast?  Well, being an adult sucks, and now you want to be a kid with no responsibilities again haha!
5. Stop focusing too much on finding true love.  It happens when you least expect it.  I was in a toxic relationship in my 20’s for several years, and it was on and off.  I was made to feel lower than I was, I was brainwashed into thinking I couldn’t do better, and that being cheated on was ok.  I was mentally abused, to the point where I acted in ways I never expected myself to act.  My friend of over 10 years, had come back into my life.  He became my best friend and soon to be husband.  True love will find you, one way or another.
6. Stop feeling sorry for yourself.  You are given obstacles in life to make you stronger.
7. Stop being a people pleaser.  You will get walked all over, and that is a severe weakness to have.  People take advantage of this, develop thick skin, and NEVER let anyone bring you down.
8. 2019 will be a year of loss and gain.  You will lose 3 loved ones, but you will also have gained a lot in life.  Unfortunately, your family (besides parents and brother) will turn your back on you after your grandparents pass away (because some of them like to start rumors), and as sad as that seems, it’s for the better.  You don’t need fake people in your life, who only use you for money and a place to stay in the United States.  You may never know how your grandparents actually passed away because of all of the lies your family overseas fed you.  Keep your head up though, you’ve gone through some tough shit in your life, you can make it through this.  The third loved one that you will lose is your precious pup of over 14 years.  He will slip away peacefully after his body can no longer fight anymore.  Don’t worry, he’s hanging out with everyone in doggy heaven.
9. For the love of god and all that is holy STOP GOING TANNING!  You will regret it once you get older!
10. Ugly cry if you have to.  It’ll help you get your emotions out and realize you need to keep going.

The last 32 years of my life have been great.  I have learned so much over my lifetime, good and bad.  This year has been an extremely rocky one, both good and bad.  However, through all of this, I have seen just how much I’ve evolved.  When I look back on who I was just 10 years ago, at 22, I realize just how much I’ve grown.  Here’s to another year!